still wondering..

life..still now a illusion...a never ending road, a long path, will death really end it, or will it be even longer, still a big mistake to even live here.

seem like so , you just cant run away from faith, everyone is just so different.

we live doing and work for the same things and yet so different, is an illusion that it seem the same, everytime , when you make a mistake what will you do , you ask yourself , what to do.
most of the time we just escape it and never dare to look back and try , is there really a mistake , can it be learn , why , why not just learn from it . but the truth line is that wether , is it really a mistake in the first place, the problem is that u choose to do it in the first place . am i very sure there is another way , cant it be the only way.

when ppl ask one else to do a thing, why are there ppl who refuse, are the ppl who run away and hid themself with other option the loser..? is it so hard to do whts told... yes it is, coz we are different, really..?

just give me a chance to go with death.. yes, i will willingly follow...i just want to take a look how big death is, how long death is , painful death is , just how , what the hell is death.. pls take me there let me know, the 7 sins and love, thats the only thing i look back at , sins are not bad.. they are good , we feel good and we want more, why is wanting more things a sins , the system dont control us...we do , or is it so.. i believe that in such a big world out there, there are ppl watching us, and controling us... love.... just so hard to understand...family love, friendship love , muture love, love...just love..isit... ?? one alway have to give in more than the other..why not neutual ..maybe it just cant.. like i say... give and take. but i dont care about this, i just like being in love.. is the only thing we share the same..love..that is..i just wanna give and be loved...

hope i can..even if i cant, i just really wish that everything could just be nothing...so no one will suffer the pain ...of life...just nothing..plain emptyness...not even god exist...just nothing, not even the black hole...nothing ..nothing at all...