''half naked'' the story part 1

hey hey ..hi to all back at last this time i am here to tell a story ..a humannistic story..like the days of our life...ty for ur support..

so many things revolving around me lately ...life still sucks i say...but at least , there is one more hand , one more eye , one more nose , one more ear , one more say , and my one only love ...

thing arent alway seen and being heard as the way we want and think ..illusion is one thing that proven so . truth to be told..no one ever live to tell wht death is and wht is it all about..no one..and never ever. Around this fuckup world, are all systems... they are like a game... but u dont really have an extra life, u dont have super powers....just u urself , is now or never..death or life... going through and take this road wont be easy , never will it.

everyone have a different road to walk , we learn in different ways..we feel the different emotions..but we share the same..the same joy.! and happyness..that itself is enough for ppl like me...i dont wanna much..i dont really care much...my past hunt me deep.

"life is short make it fast" i use to say this alot..in my past ..and nv really listen to the wispers around me..i just nv seem to get the meaning about it...i was stupid back then. i feel like a zombie , eat, shit , and sleep..life around me is biter than any beans.. blood is thicker than water to say..i feel so homeless ..like the wind could just slice me through..

remembering the day i fainted...because of my jackass acts , causes me to flush myself down the toilet..i begun to think ..i can tell u the most happy and top most perfect of my story was to faint and never look at the world again, i have no guts , no friends , no one..just alone , iam just a pain in the ass. in that black paradise ... i hear a voice .. hey '' wakeup, u aint alone'' i was curious even though i was suffering..humans nature i would said.. i pull myself together . i blink an eye .. i saw....i saw the most beautiful ... those eyes.. like my..... i shut my eyes and think..whether..they are true..am i dead..? i question myself ... but just like any other humans...i too have sin... i look ... open my eyes , as i open.. i saw her... she have the same eyes....

suddenly i feel sick..and butterflys flying in my stomach..dont knw why ? iam so confuse.. i felt a warm at my heart ...she huged me , everythings going to be fine'' she said.
i cant describle .. the warm and love i had..been given...no one , no stranger had ever giving me a hug. i was happy and lost.

kelly ,her name that was , given to her by her grandmother..she live by the river , a blue , clear clean, nice lake... standing at the sides and just looking straight up , u can see the mountain that make this water alive , just so lovely to hear the river flowing slowy down the stream, ur thoughts will also flow down with it...

her parents are farmers.. not too poor , not too rich.. just enough for family .. she lives in a nice wooden , old but stable , cottage look house.. just the perfect house u can ever dream to have..
just so u must knw , like i say life is hard and not wht we think is it really is..

end of part 1